Monday, November 22, 2010

"I don't know where I'm going, but I know what I've lost" Joel Plasket

I'm developing an insecurity complex about my invented boyfriend. Invented to ward off advances from locals claiming to have a preference for big (read: tall) western women, they're perplexed why he isn't accompanying me.

"He has to work," I offer.

"Maybe he don't really love you," is a common response. "Maybe he think you too fat," one was bold enough to suggest.

When probed for further information about him, it's never the same man twice. There was Lorn, a 30-year-old organic farmer. Richard, a 40-year-old playing the markets with more money than he knew what to do with. A gracefully aging ski bum. A young snappy forester from down east. A workaholic geologist learning Portuguese.

I have borrowed snippets from my favourite former fellas to casually and temporarily construct an as-needed relationship. As I quickly smile and pay tribute to what and who was, it's a sobering reminder of one of the costs of snowbirding at 25.

Loss of romantic relationships is where the grieving only begins. Away for Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving with a dynamic, extended-definition of family that swells and contracts holiday to holiday, I cheat myself out of deeper relationships on the genetic front.

What used to be hours and hours of gossip, concert going, hoe toes with my girlfriends and uni pub nights that seemingly never ended has now been reduced to an insufficient lunch, drink, coffee between my work and travel laps.

Maybe that comfortable ease of daily life can't be regained over the short course of a meal, or an evening of mindless TV watching, or even an all-night gab sesh with the girls over too many bottles of wine. But, I'll still continue to make the time and effort for these friends and family that make returning to where I started so easy.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Cambodia photos so far

(Tuk tuk with Kieren and Roz)

(This is a shit photo, but I still really like it)

(On boardwalk to one of the temples)

(Kieren taking a photo)

(Total cheese, but worth the $1)

(Part of the Lady Temple)

(A bit naughty, eh?)

(Hand cut grass at Angkor Wat)

(Boat journey to Battambang)

(Moto tour around Battambang)

(Bamboo railroad)

(My destination. Killing cave and temples on top)

(Cambodian flora)

(Monkeys playing on my walk down)


(Swimming hole in Ream National Park near Sihanoukville)

(View from lookout in Ream)